Finding Yourself Again

I have been dealing with some annoying health issues since the end of October.  Although one of them is being corrected I physically, mentally and emotionally have not been myself since this summer. Brian and I have made some changes in our mindsets and things have been so different even in the midst of these consistent issues.


Today I got back some blood work that revealed some areas my body is incredibly deficient in.  I am working with a new doctor to bring up my iron, B12, Folate, Vitamin D and some other things.  My body is just not absorbing what it needs to. I am so glad I chose to get it checked out instead of just feeling not like “Gretchen”.

As a great friend of mine said before my trip to Memphis when I asked if he needed anything before I left; he said, “Yes I need you to be happy again and yourself again!  I miss her!” At that time I didn’t realize what all had changed about myself and just thought I was allowing my circumstances to dictate my life. (Although I am guilty of that too). Over the past month it has been a reality check and thankful that it is all easily fixed.  

The Lord is also revealing some heart issues and performing massive amounts of heart surgeries on me.  I love that He wants to sanctify my soul!!

My husband has been incredibly supportive during this journey and although he is a good man he hasn’t always been understanding. I love the way his heart has been turned to Jesus in new ways and back to me.  The nonjudgmental encouragement and talking through things has been so helpful in working through these health issues.

I have cried more tears in the past 6 months than I have in the past decade combined. For those that know me best know I’m not a cryer.  The sweetness of my guys and Jesus’ love has carried me through this process of discovering what is going on.

I share this because I want those of you that need to pay attention to your health to please do that. For those of you that have changes going on and you aren’t feeling yourself to know you aren’t alone. I thank you for prayers for healing, wholeness and understanding. Mostly understanding for myself.  I am so hard on myself and the enemy likes to take advantage of that.

"You delight in showing mercy and mercy triumphs over judgement."
Sing, O daughter of Zion! Shout, O Israel! Be glad and rejoice with all your heart, O daughter of Jerusalem! The LORD has taken away your judgments, He has cast out your enemy. The King of Israel, the LORD, is in your midst; You shall see disaster no more. (Zephaniah 3:14-15 NKJV)

I will rest in His Presence as I journey forward...

Written by Gretchen Cannon